With the first rays of dawn

A new day has broken, let’s do something. The night has imperceptibly wished goodbye, leaves behind cold air and ruins of thoughts. Now, music gets through to my ears, stimulates my brain waves anew. My thoughts go back and forth. I have the hope of hitting the stop button at the right moment. Memories blurred [...]

Yang spectrum

Spiritless, yet not depressed. Somewhat bored with me in spite of interesting people in the surrounding. Did I lose the ability to see the extraordinary in the ordinary? Would this help to set my inner torch aflame again? What I’m used to has become so familiar. Often, I forget to be grateful just like that. [...]

Lady Storm

Everyday mostly worrisome news from all over the globe gets through to me. I can't do much about it but to recognize what's happening and try to figure out what I could change in my life. The feeling that occurs along with it is called Weltschmerz. Experiencing this pain shows me that I'm indeed a sentient [...]

Yesterday a monster, today a shrink.

If you have a mental illness or you have experienced other heavy problems that affected your mental health, you've probably met a psychiatrist. But what the heck is a psychiatrist? They were a kind of monster to me before I first met one in person, meaning that I was scared. Why? Perhaps because he/she would notice something [...]

Different Approaches

Currently, I’m looking for some new answers in my view about mental illness. It’s not just a current thing but rather a topic that keeps coming up again and again. This search is especially nourished by my psychotic experiences that I first had at the age of 21. At the core is a pathological, in [...]

Spark glow

Oh, you spark of life, glow with all force in your whole glory as the spark of soul. You strive aloft from the mystic universal fire, carried by the heat of the air, into the dark unknown of the night. Lonely, but yet as one of many, you become aware of your uniqueness. You glow [...]